Gift

I recieved what I believe to be the greatest gift I've ever been given yesterday. My kindred spirit, bosom buddy, life partner haha, best friend, whatever you wanna call it, gave me about 100 photocopied pages of her prayer journal. It has over a months worth of journaling from when she went to Rhwanda and when she was really seeking God's peace. To be given something so intimate is absolutely priceless in my eyes. To read such raw honesty and emotion is beautiful. : ) I can't wait to read it all.

Love

"I'm in love, I'm in love and I don't care who knows it!" -Buddy the Elf

Cheesy, yes, but I am in love with Jesus! This has been a great weekend when I expected such turmoil. As we were singing "I can't stop falling in love with you. I'll never stop falling in love with you.", I truly meant it. He renewed my heart and attitude this week when I know that I don't deserve to even be thought about. Wow, I'm just joyful right now. I think the puzzle of my future is slowly being put together as I learn more about myself. This excites me more than anything. The whole world is an option. Nothing is holding me back. I wish everyone knew that they are the only thing holding themselves back from all the God has for them. Ok, not that everyone desires to travel the world but I'm upset when people settle. Don't settle!... Even after you get married. Life doesn't have to end unless you let it. Ok, rant over. So is this post.

Lynchburg

At points I wanted to shoot myself but 5 hours later we're finally here. Four grandparents.....Three losing their hearing..... Everyone talking extremely loud.......Wow. I don't know what I would have done without my ipod. We ate at the sketchiest restaraunt ever. We were the only white people and they opened up the back section of the restaraunt (which was completely empty) and made us sit there. I think I experienced my first instance of segragation. haha It was called Stephanies 2. I don't know where Stephanies 1 was but I don't think I'd want to go there either. We ate there because we couldn't find the elusive Cracker Barrel. Fast food was out of the question as my grandma made VERY clear. Oh well, I'm not complaining. Ok ok, I guess I am. It's just been a surreal 2 days.

haha We're watching Futurama. It's the one where Fri sells his hands to the devil.

Granola

I'm not competive but ,man, do I love to win!

Loss

For 7 years our tuesday nights have been spent with our friends.

We laughed with them and cried with them.

Tonight we parted and I feel as though my friend has died.

They shall be greatly missed and our tuesday nights will never be the same.

Rest in Peace Gilmore Girls. : ((

Faux work

I am sitting at my desk in the church offices with not much to do. So far I have written 2 letters and talked to a disgruntled lady (ok, she wasn't disgruntled but that sounds more exciting that reality) I sit here typing away so the sound the keyboard (which is very loud) will fool the staff members into thinking I am doing actual work. Hopefully they don't read this post for many weeks. : ) I guess I thought there would be more work for me to do but there really isn't. I am waiting for all the connection cards to get in so I can do real work. Till then I shall sit and look very busy.

Clarity

Take 2 on today's post:

Rough start this morning..... and afternoon. Yet again, God is so so faithful. When I least expected it He whispered truth to me that gave me such freedom. I am free from all worry and sorrow. If something isn't working out the way I want then I know it's not God's plan for my life. Why shed one tear or waste one thought on what I cannot change? I am free!! What a weight has been lifted off my shoulders! And what clarity a nap and running can bring!

: )

This has been a great great day!
-I went to the dump with my dad. This doesn't sound like fun but it was great to just sit and talk with him.
-Farmers market trip with my friend katie. I bought a cherry tomato plant! : )))
-Iced coffee with Katie. mmmmmmmm
-PIT winner. (funnest game ever)
-Frisbee
-Pool with the boys. Almost drowned above water but fun nonetheless. ; )
-I topped it all off with a nap.
It's only 5. The day isn't even close to being over. I'm feeling like it's only going to get better.

potatoes

I wrote a blog but deleted it. I decided I couln't waste such a good picture on such a stupid blog. But I suppose this post is worse. ehhh whatever.

I left the original title to verify that the deleted post didn't have much potential. haha

Is This For Real?

It's all coming together. Plane tickets bought yesterday. Arrival information sent out today. Wow. In 45 days I will be on a plane getting pysched up for the biggest adventure so far in my short life. Oh, I am so excited. I've probably said that a million time but it is true.

babysitting

I'm sitting in a big empty house watching the disney channel eating grape nuts with rice milk. I bet you envy me.

Locker Room

Awkward Moment of the Day (perhaps the entire year)

After I took a cycle class at the gym I sat down in front of a mirror in the locker room to french braid my hair. I just learned how to do it so it took a really long time. I noticed as I was taking my time french braiding a lady came up behind me. She went to her locker and got some clothes out. The next time I looked up I saw everything...... yes, everything of this woman.... this old woman. (Imagine me gagging inwardly) Instantly I look down and take my hair out to start agian to give her more time to get dressed before I make the mistake of looking up again. She was like 2 feet away from me! Who does that? She must have been a confident lady or something. Ugh. wow. Eventually I got the nerve to stand up and walk very quickly out of the locker room. I hope this is as awkward as it gets.

Wind

Today has been good. My sister was in a great mood. I wasn't so much. She kept trying to cheer me up but I wasn't budging. After my cure-all nap, the world was a happy place again. We drove to Walmart with the new relient k CD blasting and the windows down. This has to be one of my favorite things in life. Driving on a hot day with the wind blowing my hair and screaming to my favorite music. We just had to make a trip by sonic. My sister is funny. She refers to our sonic drinks as "special treats" to her boyfriend in a little voice. Everything is grand and romantic with Megan. I think life has a lovely tint in the eyes of megan. The world is beautiful and inspiring to her. She is my best friend. If only life could just stop here for a little while. Why do we have to grow up?

bob lob law

There is nothing like a good friend. While talking to one of my closest friends about marriage we decided that we pretty much have a great marriage. We know that the other loves us even if we don't talk for a week. We know that we think each other are beautiful even if it's not spoken. We know we're valued without the constant need to be around one another. I know it's probably just that the expectations of a romantic relationship and friend relationship are very different. Marriage has seemed less and less desirable in my mind recently. Some of the only two people who do it right (in my opinion) that I know are my parents. Thats not a great figure considering all the married couples I know. I guess the fact that I know what I want and don't want now will help me later. I will not settle. I guess that's all I'm trying to say. That and my security will only ever come from God. Just how I don't rely on this friend for my worth, I will not rely on a guy. God is the center. I hope I never loose perspective.

Ready

We're going to lynchburg. I'm ready to go. Also....

52 days!!!!! till I'm leaving for Denver! I'm even more ready to go there. These next 2 months of waiting are going to be rough. But hopefully they'll be fun...